This is me. Sometimes. Right now, maybe.
Okay. It’s not literally me, but one empathizes. Some days, you suit up and get ready to go – only to find yourself in an empty room, sitting on a dirt floor with a bottle of whatever. Or at least, that seems like a good call.
Today is one of those days. That big announcement I mentioned last month?
In a nutshell, it’s that I’m pretty much walking away from Gearbox Magazine for a while.
If the last few months have been any indication, I’m unable to manage a basic, let alone consistent, publishing schedule. After six years chasing a dream, I’m no closer to doing this for a living than I was the day I bought the domain. It’s my own damn fault, really. Never sought to monetize the site with advertising. Never really had much in the way of products or events for sale, either. Not sure what I was thinking to be honest.
This is a hard post to publish.
For years, this has been my life’s work. It’s felt like my calling. My legacy. An intrinsically valuable contribution to the world. Even if precious few people actually “got it” and believed in the idea of high performance machines and lives with me.
I’ve been struggling with the desire to nuke and repave for a couple years, now. Just can’t bring myself to do it. There’s a lot of excellent stories on this site. This site is even on my resume! I can’t just pull the plug. So I’m not going to. I’m just going to walk away.
Where do I go from here?
That’s where I’m headed. This magazine began as a place to showcase modified Mitsubishis. Our first expansion was into rally. While I still love both Mitsubishis and rally, neither consume me as they once did. My tastes have changed.
Today, I’m more interested in getting outdoors with multiple passengers in the vehicle. Experiencing the world. Slowing down and enjoying the simpler things. I’m still a gearhead and I still live and die by the absolute disaster that is my disorganized toolbox these days, but I’m after work-life parallel – not balance.
It’s not the end of GBXM, though. Not by any means. Things are just going to slow way, way down before they pick back up. Quality over quantity.
So before I get back to work after lunch, I’ll leave you with this picture and a question.
Suppose I built the comprehensive, self-paced course on how to take your gearhead game to the next level you see above. It’s been on my todo list for at least a year. How would you like to see that delivered? PDF download, private forum space, video or podcast? Let me know. I think it’s the next thing I’ll be seriously working on for this site.
In-depth, next level gearhead interviews will continue as I come across them. Thanks for everything. Never give up. Press on regardless. Keep going fast with class.